Those of you who are close friends to me know that I had a best friend named Calli who passed away almost 5 years ago. I loved her dearly. And she loved me unconditionally whether I was in a bad mood or good, whether I spoke to her with impatience or kindness and whether I ignored her or showered her with attention. The day she died was, to date, the saddest day of my life. And I'll never forget the days after she died which I spent alone in my darkened room; unable to work, unable to talk on the phone, unable to even see my family for the risk of breaking down into uncontrollable, heart-wrenching sobs was absolute. Calli was my dog. My dog; my best friend.
I used to have this theory that my dad's father, "Da" made me a lover of dogs when upon my 2-week birthday, he arrived in California ready to meet me and bearing the gift of a small stuffed puppy. I realize now that I was likely always meant to be a dog lover and the gift was merely a coincidence. But for some reason, as a child, I'd always ask my mom if Da's gift was the reason I loved dogs so much. She had no answer. What she did have for me, after I left that childhood - was a story of how instead of imaginary friends, I had an imaginary dog. She recounted how around the age of 4, I'd trot through the kitchen, pause about halfway, stop and turn, bend over a bit and pat*pat*pat my knee and call for "Toto". I apparently did this enough times that Mom actually remembered it (she has so few stories of our childhoods due to her self proclaimed "poor memory".)
And then I bought a place. Had a ridiculously crazy social life. Was always here or there, or out and about. Traveling and working and making friends and meeting men and I too - was not in a position to have a dog.
Please help us pick a name! Please feel free to leave name suggestions as a comment to this post too! This is the fun "no hard work yet" part of getting a dog.
"My sweet Calli-girl, I'll always love you and I'll always miss you and I'll never forget you... But I'm ready, and I think it's finally time..."